i don't know

I dont wanna admit it to myself but it actually hit me. I already came to a realization few weeks ago while listening to a radio program -- "we're friends and that's all we'll ever be" wag na ipilit ang hindi na dapat ipilit hehe (actually hindi ko na rin naman pinipilit eversince pero at the back of my mind gusto kong ipagpilitan hehe - ang gulo! ano ba kasi yun?? hehe). Bakit nga ba some good things never last?? kasi siguro you can't have the best of everything, how can you appreciate life if you won't experience its ups and downs? bittersweet nga daw diba, you have times na you're super happy and times na super sad. Just like love, you woke up one day and realized na "you're getting there" (a dialogue from Piolo's movie hehe) but then when you almost reach the end something will just come up and will change the whole thing - your emotions, your thoughts, plans and that very little thing that you're holding onto..your feelings, your love for that person. Perhaps, I'm just giving myself false hopes, I don't know siguro I need to do something...something that will make me continuously super busy that I don't have time for myself and most especially-my feelings or maybe go some place na malayo sa lahat, stay there for some time to regain myself and when I come back its as if nothing happened.. easier said than done. Bakit ba kasi walang way to tell your heart to stop! stop from where it was and don't attempt to go further..ang hirap bumalik eh if you're almost there and mas mahirap siguro kung andun ka na talaga. On top of it all what I always tell myself is that.."Gam zeh ya'avor (Hebrew) --This Too Shall Pass".. and I know it will, it must.

uwian na

wala lang,, I just wanna leave a post before I go home.. yun lang! hehe

my first post

hi everyone!! thanks for visiting my blog (sana visit nyo lagi..hehe). I was inspired by Bianca's (my super favorite host and youth model- pretty obvious she's smart, effortlessly beautiful and she seems to have a kind heart) blog so I made one! hmm.. what else do I have to say?? (hehe wla akong masabi nag-blog pa ko..). Haayy.. today is the 2nd day of our 8-5 schedule,, waaah! I really hate waking up early but then I would rather leave the office at 5pm than to stay until 6 (grabeh naman ksi ang traffic) so ayos narin yung gnitong schedule. so what's in store for me today?? wala yata, just like the ordinary days that passed after work uwi agad then watch some tv shows and then sleep wake up again at 5 and everything follows.. by the way,, today is the bday of a friend so "happy birthday" to him (batiin daw ba d2 sa blog.. ehehe wala na kong mailagay). I'm currently listening to "Always in my heart" a song which I first heard way back in highschool, I wanna share a couple lines (very sweet) it goes something like.. "I believe there's a way to show you even when we are apart , though the times we're not together you're always in my heart." =)