i don't know

I dont wanna admit it to myself but it actually hit me. I already came to a realization few weeks ago while listening to a radio program -- "we're friends and that's all we'll ever be" wag na ipilit ang hindi na dapat ipilit hehe (actually hindi ko na rin naman pinipilit eversince pero at the back of my mind gusto kong ipagpilitan hehe - ang gulo! ano ba kasi yun?? hehe). Bakit nga ba some good things never last?? kasi siguro you can't have the best of everything, how can you appreciate life if you won't experience its ups and downs? bittersweet nga daw diba, you have times na you're super happy and times na super sad. Just like love, you woke up one day and realized na "you're getting there" (a dialogue from Piolo's movie hehe) but then when you almost reach the end something will just come up and will change the whole thing - your emotions, your thoughts, plans and that very little thing that you're holding onto..your feelings, your love for that person. Perhaps, I'm just giving myself false hopes, I don't know siguro I need to do something...something that will make me continuously super busy that I don't have time for myself and most especially-my feelings or maybe go some place na malayo sa lahat, stay there for some time to regain myself and when I come back its as if nothing happened.. easier said than done. Bakit ba kasi walang way to tell your heart to stop! stop from where it was and don't attempt to go further..ang hirap bumalik eh if you're almost there and mas mahirap siguro kung andun ka na talaga. On top of it all what I always tell myself is that.."Gam zeh ya'avor (Hebrew) --This Too Shall Pass".. and I know it will, it must.