take home

Weekend's coming but before I get to enjoy my off (SUNDAY lang naman yun) I need to read and UNDERSTAND the books/brochure about EF (Education First) given by my boss..waaaaah may assignment pa ko. Better if he'll enroll me to one of EF's school kahit saang country okay lang, para at least first hand experience mas maiintindihan ko kung ano ba talagang meron dun!(hahaha wish ko lang). Good thing colorful yung binigay nya and puro pictures yung reading materials but worst is may mga graphs! yoko pa naman nakakakita nun, titignan ko pa lang stressful na.

I bought a pair of slippers sa bazaar kanina cuteee magkaiba ng color white sa right while sa left is black pero black yung strap nya ska comfy sya kasi unlike sa mga sandals with heels (sakit naman sa paa) better na yun, I can wear it with jeans and even with skirts. Yun lang! wala kasi ko mai-share eh next week na lang. Sige uwi na ko. =P

random thoughts part two.

** Aug. 25 La Mesa Grill, Trinoma-- I had dinner with Bah, Roni, Amay, Ate Jackie and Jane. Overnight kina Jem.. videoke, naglaro ng ps, kumain ng e-aji, uminom ng coke, na-paint ng HANGAL shirt.

To Roni: Nku sorry Roni kung di maganda pagkaka-paint namin sa shirt mo kasi naman ang panget nung yellow na paint medyo malabnaw pero sabi naman ni Jem papalitan na lang nya buti na lang may binigay kang pera! haha para dun pala yun, ang galing mo talaga Roni!! after ng lahat ng yun natulog na kami. The next morning..nag-breakfast at lumayas na.


** Huhuhu napaso ng plantsa ang left thumb ko ang dami ko kasing pinlantsa kaya yun sa sobrang ngalay siguro nagtuluy-tuloy yung dulo ng plantsa sa daliri ko bigla akong nabuhayan sa sakit! huhuhu. Eto sya oh


** Nung Saturday, nag-visit si Amay sa UA&P. She gave me a voo doo doll sabi nya yun daw yung pinaka-unang ginawa nyang manika ng mangkukulam obvious naman na yun ang pinaka una tignan mo naman yung hitsura
haha (peace Amie! I love it promise!! I adore it as much as I adore Kokey haha) I named it/ him "JOEY" yun kasi unang name na pumasok sa isip ko nung sinabi
nya na bigyan namin ng name,ngayon nakasabit na sa phone ko si Joey, its/he's with me everyday. Everyone..meet Joey, (its / his bday is on August 25).


** Monday..holiday, nanood lang ako ng tv sa bahay, napanood ko ulit yung "The Ellen Degeneres Show" happy na naman ako! I adore Ellen, she's sooo funny and smart and sometimes unpredictable, spontaneous hehe katuwa.

Also, for the 5th time, walang sawa ko ulit na pinanood ang isa sa mga favorite movies ko "A lot like Love" Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet, whenever napapanood ko sya its as if 1st time ko syang napanood excited pa rin ako sa mga scenes..You should watch it pati soundtrack nya kasi maganda.



** Monday din nun, Fanget and I were supposed to have a date (bestfriends date). We already planned that few weeks ago, kung anu ano ng naplano namin kaso wala namang natuloy! hmmp! We planned to watch "A love story" kaso nagpunta sya ng La Union (work related naman kaya I understand). I miss her na kasi, though we get to talk naman sa text ska sa bahay kasi dumadaan sya sa amin (we're neighbors) pero iba pa rin yung dati.. yung tipong parang kami lang 2 sa mundo..kami lang lagi magkasama at magkausap. Sana one of these days matuloy na yung date naming 2 or should I say naming 3 nina Amay! (the power of 3 remember?? hehe) I miss you Fanget!

tomorrow is August 25

Tomorrow is L's birthday.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him! for the past five years ginugunita ko yung bday nya (he's still alive ah don't get me wrong). Hindi ko na nakakalimutan yung bday nya, that's how special he is in my life basta he's one of the very few people na for sure eh hindi ko makakalimutan kahit matanda na ko.

To L:

I know naman na hindi mo 'to mababasa but still just like what I've been always doing..gusto ko pa rin na batiin ka..hehe. Ingat ka lagi and you're always in my prayers. Hope to see you again someday...

To everyone:

Enjoy the weekend!! mahaba habang bakasyon din 'to!! yahoo!!

random thoughts..

** Last night I happened to catch the show ELLEN (yehey!!), I've been wanting to watch that show since last week when I saw its commercial. Still up at 3am I got to watch AS TOLD BY GINGER (my super favorite Ginger Foutley), the episode was about Courtney's (the most popular girl in school) slumber party which Ginger attended thinking that Courtney's invitation would be the start of their friendship not knowing that its just one of Courtney's social experiments (poor Ginger). After the program I decided to sleep, it was 3:30am.

** Just like the old times, Amie and I talked for like 3 hours over the phone (sakit sa tenga), I'm not used to it anymore I hardly use the phone at home. We laughed, shared the same drama, our what if's, somedays and I hope's. We talked about practically everything...everything that we felt like sharing.

** This Saturday I'll be meeting up with my college girl friends (Hangal). Jem's coming over!! (she's based in Bicol). The plan is to have a dinner at Trinoma then we'll sleep over at Jem's place which we always do way back in college. Whenever we have sleepovers we get to discover each other's 'super hidden" talents haha. I can still remember the last slumber party we had I'm not well aware that Roni is a good hiphop dancer haha! I still laugh everytime I remember the way she did the "creep walk" thing haha! I miss them and I'm excited to see them again. To Amie, Jem, Roni, Cindy, Aileen, Mary Jane and Rizza -- I can't wait to see you again! =)

** Long weekend again!! Non working holiday on Monday! whew! rest! rest! rest! Hopefully mareceive ko na yung paycheck ko before Saturday so I can enjoy the rest of the weekend..hmm.. saan kaya pwedeng pumunta?? =)

** I learned a new language hehe.. KOREKOREKOK (you should say it fast) got it from Kokey, I enjoy watching it, ang kengkoy nya kasi eh nakakatuwa haha.

** Yesterday I received a photo comment (Friendster) from Caster, a friend who I haven't talked for a couple of months. We lost contact when he changed his mobile network provider (ang babaw noh?! hehe) apart from that I know that he's a busy person and I'm a trying-to-be-busy person and so it's understandable hehe. Wala lang, I just appreciate the thought that he remembered me and kung bola man or totoo yung nilagay nya dun still he made me smile. With that simple and babaw compliment somehow he brightened up my day. I love compliments! well, who does not?? so keep them coming!!! haha.

** Lastly, just this morning I got a text (forwarded quote) from my HS friend Marlon a.k.a Barry Watson kasi ako daw si Katie Holmes haha. Anyway, it says:

"Things to be thankful for:
1. the alarm clock that goes off in the morning - it means that you're still alive.
2. for weary and aching muscles at the end of the day - it means you're capable of working hard.
3. for clothes that fit a little too snug - it means you have enough to eat.
4. for the mess to clean up after a party - it means you have friends who surround you.
5. for the taxes you pay - it means you have work and..
6. for too many messages in your inbox - it means you are always remembered."

After reading his text, I realized (again) that I have nothing to be sad about.

my header

special THANKS to AMIE "AmayB" Baraquiel for this wonderful work of art.. hehe.
sa sobrang pagmamahal ko syo eh tinanggal ko yung ginawa ko to display your masterpiece hehe.

Thanks Thanks din to Sweetjaney sa pag correct sa mga mali ni amay! hehe

tententenen...

Just this morning on my way to work while I’m in the fx contemplating on things, the idea of getting married suddenly crossed my mind.. hehe I began thinking of the kind of wedding that I would like to have in the future. Hmm…daydreaming.. a simple yet intimate wedding, just few guests (immediate family, relatives and closest friends). Solemn church – San Sebastian church or maybe Caleruega church in Batangas will make the occasion close to perfection plus a nice collection of wedding songs..waahh! I wanna get married! Hehe silly! First thing that comes into my mind whenever I think of exchanging vows is of course wedding songs! I would really love to hear From this moment on by Shania Twain being played while I walk down the aisle and everybody is just quiet and feeling the solemnity of the occasion, its really one of my favorite songs of all time! Gosh! I love the lyrics!!! "You're the reason I believe in love and you're the answer to my prayers from up above all we need is just the two of us my dreams came true because of you" Sooo sweet!! Another song that I like is Beautiful in my eyes originally done but Joshua Kadison but upon hearing Christian Bautista’s version I appreciated it more. How can I forget the songs ALL MY LIFE by Kc & Jojo and THIS I PROMISE YOU by Nsync which are the most memorable songs in my entire existence hehe. Other songs I have in mind are Adam Sandler’s Grow old with you, I Do by 98 degrees who used to be one of my favorite boy bands???? Swept Away by Christopher Cross and I could not ask for more by Edwin Mc Cain. Songs songs songs.. puro na lang songs wala bang groom?? How ‘bout my groom? Hmmm.. I don’t want to think about it yet surprise na lang sken (whaaat??!!) I have someone in mind but I don’t think he wants me to be his bride hahaha! (wake up!). Seriously, its every girl’s dream to get married at the right time, for the right reason and to the right person. Knowing that there is someone who will spend the rest of his life with you.

both of them..why?

I don't know where to start.. dang! I can't write anything!!

whew! finally..here we go..

Few days ago my bestfriend J got her heartbroken =( she and G (her bf) parted ways because of another girl. After all the days and months and years of being together and sharing almost everything -- the good times and the bad then all of a sudden its gone. I just find it so unfair for my bestfriend who I know has been a very ideal gf she could possibly be for G but still he fooled around. I don't understand why some guys inspite of the love that they are receiving from their respective partners still manage to look for another love? Is it falling out of love? why??

My other bestfriend A texted me last night, her bf E broke up with her. According to E (her bf) his parents want him to establish himself first before getting into serious relationship and so it ended there.

I don't know what to say to make them feel better. I'm praying that everything will be okay for the 2 of them. If you happen to stumble upon this post I just want the both of you to know that I'll always be around. I may not know how to ease your pain but if you need someone to cry with you, just let me know okay..

finally nasabi ko rin!

Sana ako din makaabot ng 4 years or more as blogger, I love writing isa yun sa mga passion ko kaso hindi ko na nga lang nagagawa because I have more important priorities like school (before) and now yung work, I don't know pero hindi ko naman pinagsisisihan na Marketing ang kinuha kong course in college instead of journalism/comm arts, as I can see kasi there are more opportunities in the field of business/marketing inisip ko lang talaga si mama nung time na nagdedecide na ko what course to take up in college pero siguro if we're filthy rich malamang writer na ko ngayon (how I wish super yaman nga kami at writer na ako!) I'm not saying naman na hindi rin money making ang pagsusulat pero talaga lang ewan ko basta! Kaya nga in my own little way like this (blogging) nailalabas ko yung passion ko for writing I would like to assume na eto yung sinasabing God-given talent ko kasi even before hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga interest ko and kung meron nga ba kong talent kahit konti hehe. I just realized last night (hehe ang tgal noh bago ko na-realize) aside from "my passion" (cge passion) through this I can fully express myself I'm not the type kasi na I would go to friends and burst everything out! even to my bestest friend "fanget" hindi ko nasasabi lahat though we promised to be a "human diary" to each other. I like keeping things to myself, I'm afraid to be misunderstood, judged though I know my friends won't do that to me but still I have that fear. Aside from that nauudlot kasi ang mga bagay bagay kapag inuunahan ng kwento kaya talagang I keep my mouth shut most of the time. I just hope my friends don't find it selfish of me for not opening up myself to them, nahihiya kasi ako minsan kahit super tagal ko nang kilala yung tao like yung mga kababata ko. Siguro to better explain that..I grew up kasi na walang kapatid and raised by my mama all by herself (iyakan na ba to? hehe) so kaya siguro I'm not so comfortable sharing my stories to my friends, meron din nman akong naiikwento but not all nga lang unlike one of my bestfriends A na lahat n yata naikwento sken (which I'm glad naman kasi she trusts me) sana gaya rin nya ko para hindi na ko nahihirapan minsan. Masakit din nman tlga sa loob kapag hindi mo masabi nasa loob mo..eh choice ko rin yun eh so I have to take the consequences.. haaayy.. ang haba na ulit ng naisulat ko dito.. tama na nga next time ulit kasi I'm about to leave na I mean uuwi nko. =)

just like Bianca

I just finished reading bianca g's blog..I didn't notice that I finished reading all! as in all from day 1 up to the latest post hehe..now it feels like I've known Bianca for 4 years well in fact I just see her on TV every Saturday (E-live). I must say that she's one of the very few people that I look up to..I love the way she writes..sooo natural, I enjoy reading her stories and I must admit I can relate to some of it hehe.

what a day

3 consecutive days nang umuulan.. haayy.. the world hates me yesterday-- I woke up late eventhough I slept early, pagdating ko sa sakayan walang cab! kahit jeep madalang buti na lang may dumaan na medyo hindi puno kaya yun nakasakay ako. The worst part of my day yesterday was I slipped! I was about to get off the jeep nung bgla nalang actually hindi ko na matandaan kung anong nangyari at pano ko nadulas..all I know is that makipot yung aisle and it's all wet! ayaw kasi itabi yung mga paa nung mga nakasakay eh (hehe nanisi pa) basta yung left foot ko nakatuntong na sa lupa pero yung right tumama pa dun sa estribo ba yun?? hehe hindi ko alam kung yun nga tawag dun basta doon! nakakahiya sobra!!!! good thing it was not a bad fall I did not fell down. I arrived 1 hour late hehe pero nagpaalam naman ako sa office. Pagdating ng uwian umuulan pa rin sa sobrang lakas ng ulan with matching lakas ng hangin kaya ayun basang basa ang pants ko nung umuwi ako! grabe tlga yung araw n yun. Just this morning medyo mabait n sken si world kasi hindi umulan mula nung lumabas ako ng bahay hanggang sa makarating ako sa work no signs of rain hehe kaloka kung kelan nag-announce ng suspension of classes to all levels ska nman hindi umulan (bakit gnon???) hanggang ngyon ganon pa din nung nag-aaral pa ako everytime na may suspension hndi tumutuloy yung ulan kaya yun nagsisisihan lagi ang DEpEd, PAGASA and CHED sa ginawang announcements haaayy..going back.. ang nakakainis lang n nangyari kanina eh nung inapakan nung girl yung paa ko! nag-"aray" n nga ako eh aba! deadma! isang sorry lang naman eh and I'll forget everything! hehehe. Mukhang di naman uulan mamyang hapon buti nman..okay lang naman na umulan pero wag nman yung may malakas pang hangin nakakabasa eh! Pero syempre thankful pa din ako na umulan kasi we badly need it..we need water,, madaming madaming water..

sana maulit muli..

Yipee!! my first ever getaway!!!!!! White Beach, Puerto Galera. I mean first ever in the sense na sarili kong gastos, 2 nights kami and malayo sya sa mga usual kong pinupuntahan. I'm with my highschool friends -- Jhen, Joy and her bf Lee, Jane, Gerou, Jessmark and Jopis. Matagal ko na talagang pinangarap n makarating sa Puerto kaya super saya ko talaga nung nakapunta ko! hehe kahit hindi ako marunong lumangoy sige go lang bahala na! hehe. It was really fun.. we left Manila February 17 (Saturday) after lunch we arrived in White Beach at around 7pm. We stayed there for 2 days and 2 nights sobrang parang amazing race ang drama namin naghahabol ng oras para makarating ng medyo maaga..hehe. First time kong mag-snorkel and sumakay ng banana boat (waaaahh!) ang bad nung operator sabi nya hindi nya ko isasama sa itataob nung banana boat pero hinulog nya rin ako!!!! hehe pero ayos lang it was fun naman except dun sa last na pag-drop smin kasi malakas n yung waves so medyo napapalayo kami ng konti ni Gerou katakot talaga..well I thank him kasi hawak nya talaga ko buti na lang marunong syang lumangoy. I won't forget talaga yung experience na yun in Puerto. =)

April 4-8, 2007 -- 2nd destination BAGUIO!!!!!!!!!! isa rin 'to sa mga gustung gusto kong puntahan and finally narating ko din..biglaang plano lang ang pagpunta namin dun kaya nga 3 lang kami --Jane, ako and Jhen. We planned it a week before Holy week wala kasi kaming magawa ni Jhen napag usapan lang namin sa chat-email y don't we go to Baguio?? Holy week naman and super init nung mga panahong yun kaya yun research agad ako sa internet ng matutuluyan and itinerary after few days okay na lahat pati tickets namin okay na! hehe. That was my longest vacation ata simula nung nag start akong magwork..the whole holy week andun kami and sobrang saya..I love the weather!!! ang sarap ang lamig!! when we arrived there around 6am while talking umuusok sa lamig yung bibig namin feeling namin nasa States kami..we visited all the places na pdeng puntahan sa Baguio at bilhin ang mga native na pagkain kung hindi nga lang hassle mag uwi ng walis malamang bumili n kaming 3 sobrang mura kasi..hehe. Next holy week kaya san naman ako dadalhin ng mga paa ko?? =)

May 2-3, 2007 --WOooaahh!!!!! the farthest place I've been sa ngayon. That was my first time to ride a plane! hehe ang saya! haha (parang tanga lang eh noh) hehe. Anyway, I fell in love agad sa place..its beautiful--malinis, tahimik and super nice ng mga tao as in lahat! nakakatuwa ang mura din ng fare sa taxi P1 yun patak nya and plug down ata is P25.00 yun nga lang like sa Baguio hindi air conditioned ang mga taxi pero hindi naman masyadong mainit at hindi rin naman malamig sa Davao kaya okay lang,, tolerable pa naman ang weather hehe.. 2 days and 1 night lang kami nag-facilitate lang kami ni Jane ng exam kaya kami napadpad dun sagot naman ng company lahat ng gastos kaya kahit nakakapagod go pa rin! hehe.. hopefully makabalik ulit ako dun kasi konti lang napuntahan namin because of limited time. Thanks again sa mga officers ng Ateneo De Davao na nag-assist sa amin while we were there.

after 10 years...

Aug 4, 2007 7pm - Congo Grill El Pueblo. After 10 long years, we've seen each other again. The one in stripes is Karen, the short-haired girl in white is Caroline and the of course the only guy in the pic is Jaypee. Sila ang mga classmates ko nung elementary and kasabay sa service pag uwian kaso kulang kami wala si May, Jhelen, Alfred and Marian--imagine 8 kami sa tricycle hehe pano kaya kami nagkasya dun dati. I'm sooo glad na after 10 years I got to see them Thank you sa friendster dun kasi kami nagkita kita. I can still remember lagi kaming nag uunahan tumakbo kapag dumadating na yung sundo namin kahit alam naman namin na may sarili sarili na kaming pwesto hehe. We played "takbuhan", "kasal Kasalan", "luksong baka" sa garden ng AAQES habang naghihintay ng sundo. I'm happy that we're able to keep our friendship eventhough we lost contact for 10 years and when we finally saw each other its as if nothing has changed..

at this very moment

Why do I have to go through this all the time?? I never learned! its as if I'm not aware what's gonna happen.. I'm tired! I should have had enough of this feeling and yet here I am suffering from the same pain all over again! All I want is to wake up one day having a different feeling than the one I'm so used to. I wish I'm brave enough to talk about what I feel and share it with the person who feels the same way as I do otherwise I just want to be numb! Sometimes though I know that I shouldn't be thinking of this but I thought of the good in disappearing for a while maybe then I will somehow get away with the pain and when I return everything will be in a whole new perspective.

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I have always been happy.. I'm happy everytime I'm with my friends, everytime I go to movies, travel to places I've never been, everytime I eat ice cream, pizza, spaghetti and chocolates, I'm happy when I know I have helped other people, everytime I spend time with my family, have a nice conversation with my mama talking about everything and nothing at all (which we seldom do), play around with my dearest doggie -- Potchie, everytime I look at the pictures of my childhood and grown up years, I'm happy everytime I recall my memories of the past, the silly things that I did, friendships that I made, games that I played.. I'm happy because I know that I'm so blessed with things which I never expected to have and the things that I hoped for has finally come to my life. But I'm just human, there are times that I still afford to be lonely and bitter about life despite the blessings that I have.. what I know now is that I'm in pain and I don't know how to get through it..

somewhere only we know

it's been a while since I last visited here.. as for today..I have nothing to say hehe. I just watched (again and again everyday) the video of Lifehouse with their cover of Keane's "Somewhere Only We Know" I love the song soooo much, can't get enough of it, I even dreamt about it! hehe silly! anyway. here it is...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ia26w-uWm_g